Yesterday morning I got a call from Mike.... he said he spoke with Jack, who is the director of the play I am working on, about lights and Jack told Mike he did not know when we were going to do lighting...---and to ask ME when things were going to happen.... Uh, hello, I was waiting for the directors go ahead-- and he KNEW that... Anyway, he asked if I was going to rehearsal... and I said I thought about maybe dropping by after my Jazzercize class..."Okay, I'll meet you there."

*sigh* Why is it that when I say "I don't know" or "Maybe" people hear, "Heck yeah, I'll be there/do it!" Fine, whatever... I left class early so I could be there on time.... not only was the director late...but the cast shows up late... and only half showed up... its a 4 person show. By then, I have checked my phone and found out that, to my un-suprise, Mike had a change of plans, as he ALWAYS does, and cancelled.

Why do I even bother?... I think its because I am a "kid" and I jump at the drop of a hat when people want something, and then when plans change or something 'better - to - do' comes along it's, "Oh, she won't care, it's just Ash." I get really sick of people taking me for granted.

People REALLY piss me off sometimes... I try SO hard to NOT be as eager to please and willing to help...--but it's just who I am... and I can't seem to kick it... My reputation, thus far, is good. In 4 shows I have missed one rehearsal and I was late to one show...and that was only because I was sick and overslept. I am dependable, even when others are not. But, the only way to really change it is to be Undependable, and that is not something I can or want to do.

So...work is crazy.... I am working SOOO many hours... well, technically ot THAT many, but because I am only use to working a couple days a week, working 5 and 7 is A LOT. I worked the 2nd half of last week, this past weekend, and everyday this week. I do get this coming weekend off, as well as the day after Christmas, otherwise I am working everyday, either 4 hour shifts, or 9 hours shifts.

We finally found a girl to work.. she trained for a couple days...and then yesterday morning her mother came and said that her daughter would not be coming to work anymore.... WTH!?!?!?

Working is taking a toll of my studying... I can study okay... but I am SOOO tired, and it's hard enough for me to retain anything...well, except for unwanted calories and fat tissue... finals begin Wednesday the 14th.... I hope I can pass all my tests...A's would be great...but B's will do... I prefer to not think about C's.... and D's and F's are just not an option....

I had a point....I swear when I began writing I had a point and something else to talk about... but I cannot seem to remember what it was...

I finalized my spring schedule, for the most part, and managed to order all the books that I would need...as follows....

Business 82- Business Intro- Books: About $55
Business 174 - Marketing Principles - Books: About $90
Business 188- Effective Human Relations - Books: About $42
English 4 - Literature, etc, etc - Books: About $25
Education 150 - Intro to Teaching- Books: $30.06
Math 230 - Int Algebra II - Books: Already have from previous semester

Grands Total w/ shipping: About $251.77
Minus book buy back $$$: -$75.00
Out of Pocket Total: $176.77

Not too shabby for 19 units worth of classes! Plus, I am a smart shopper.

Okay... study time before work...

Techie
Not too shabby....