Yes, that's right. I said full speed ahead-- taking baby steps. Cuz right now, that's about as fast as I can go!My knee surgery went well and after 3 weeks I was allowed to begin phsical therapy. (I <3 my physical therapist BTW; I worked with her prior to surgery to try and avoid surgery. Sadly my body has a tendencey to not respond to PT.) Anyway. I began PT on Tuesday and things went fairly well. I am still not allowed to walk without my immobilizer, or do any type of exercises, all I can do for the first 2 1/2 weeks of PT is take off the brace and let my therapist manipulate and massage my leg/knee for me. Easy right??

Hell no!

The first day I was in so much pain! I never thought that bending my knee would feel so akward and tight. But the more my PT pushed on it and bent my leg the worse I felt. However, the good news is that she only expected a 40 degree range of motion and I have around 70, yay!

When I went back on Friday, yesterday, she made me do the most horrible thing. *gasp* I had to sit on the edge of the treatment table with both of my legs danging off (like a normal person would sit)... and THEN... she had to take a phone call and she left me there. YIKES! pain city....

Then, when she finally came back I had to do a VMO, which is little round electrodes that they attach-- one on the upper thigh and one near the knee... this was really bad. See, the point of the VMO is to stimulate the muscles, but the catch is, is that you have to be able to turn it up to a certain frequency before it really works..... WELL, my knee was NOT going to have that. So I began at one (with a lot of burning in the VMO attachment sites).... when usually I could take a MIN of *I think*.....30 or 40 and then could progress up to like 70? I think thats right. But anyway, in 15mins, I worked up from 1 to 16.... still not good enough.

It's Sofa King (yeah, lame, shut up!) hard for me because I am such an active person. I'm a cheerleader, HELLO! I am use to dancing and stunting and running around and at home if the right song comes on I stand up and dance... and I can't to that. Getting in my car and going to the store has become so hard I don't go unless I HAVE to... that and going to school is a nightmare. Not having my leg propped up when I sit sends shooting pain through my knee and then my whole leg goes numb, lovely, isn't it?It's really hard because I use to take all the little things for granted, getting up and ready to go--quickly, hopping in and out of the car, running errands, going shopping, going to school, or just sitting down on the couch. ALL of it is SO hard now.

I can't WAIT until I can take off the brace and begin strengthening.And that's another thing... strengthening... I have lost ALL... ALL aka every bit of muscle in my left quad. Do you know how sad that makes me? I spent the past year trying to build it up and now, in 3 1/2 weeks it gone. There is a fucking dip from my knee to top of the thigh were my quad SHOULD be.I am ready and rearing to go and get better... it's my knee that won't respond... I just hope that changes-- and soon because I am tired of having to lay around like a sloth. I hate depending on others to do things for me. It makes me feel bad.

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In other news... my birthday is 15 days away, woo-hoo!!!!

And... And... And... I get to go see WICKED L.A. OOOMMMGGG!!! I am SOOO psyched! I have NEVER been more excited! (and I don't get giddy like this-- ever.)

The best part about going to see the show is that one of the leads, Megan Hilty, is one of my FAVORITE actresses!!! She's like, my idol! YES!!! I get to see her perform, live!!!! YYAAYYY!!!! AND, after the show I get to go to the Stage Door and with any luck, MEET HER! OMG, that would make my year, (at least, my year)....

*end fan girl speech*


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