It's been while since I've last blogged. But I hope to be a little better about it. I can try, but no promises.

I am missing theatre... I was asked to work in the past couple IH shows... run lighting / or stage manage for one... and then to stage manage another... and I turned both down... I really want to focus on acting. I have learned the hard way that NOT getting cast does not mean that you did not audition well or that you were not liked or even that you were not right for the part... I mean, it may sometimes, but in some cases it may be that you didn't fit with others that were cast or something along those lines that is nothing against you personally... I was told, recently, that I auditioned the best and didn't get the role... WTF? --I didn't fit with the mother they cast... (I auditioned for the role of the daughter...)

I have finally, absolutely decided to DOUBLE major... in Liberal Studies and Theatre. I LOVE theatre. I always have... in high school I strayed... because doing theatre was SO NOT "practical".... thanks to some special people-- those who got me back into theatre and those I've worked with and those who inspire me to NO END... I realized I really LOVE theatre and found what I've been missing... but I've know this. Everytime I see a show I am inspired. Especially the big shows. WICKED is my FAVORITE.... so many of the actors in this show inspire me and it's something I wish I could explain... but I cannot.

So, I am double majoring... mainly because my mother insists that I have a "fall back"... what I plan on doing is pursuing theatre with all my might... and if I end up falling on my face sliding through the mud and over a cliff--- then I will take my fall back and either teach 6th grade or middle/high school theatre. But I want to work in theatre... it's a passion... and nobody can take that.. they can tell me it's not 'right' but they can't take my love and passion and drive.

And boy, I've got A LOT of heart and A LOT of passion... and I hope that makes up for things I cannot deliver as well as I'd like to on...

More than anything I need singing help... I hope to get a vocal coach soon... I REALLY hope that my voice is "salvagable" I mean... I've never sang for anything "important"... but I LOVE to do it... I think I can, I really do... at least I want to think I can. I'm not tone deaf... I think I just need a coach for it. I'm ooozing with potential... I'm just a blob of clay... and I need a vocal teacher to mold me... hahahaha.... (<-- Lame, yeah, Shuuush!)

So, my internship is coming up soon. I'm happy and sad at the same time. I've wanted this internship for a long time... the only real downside is that even though it will be an AMAZING experience it has nothing to do with my theatre major! Yet, it will be fun... I will spend 2 semesters interning and one more semester at COS before I transfer... at least that's my plan! But... I have to keep in mind that life happens while I'm busy planning...


I got my term grades today... SO not happy with them...I got bad grades.... *freaks* I don't get it!!!! I worked my a$$ off.... granted I missed a lot of school because of my STUPID knee surgery... SO not my fault... the doctor said I'd be back in a week.... HA! One month later I went back-- and worked my back end OFF.... and what do I get? Nothing! I get bad grades. And the worst part is, is that I talked to my teachers before and during the surgery and up through the ends of the term... and they all KNEW my circumstances and they KNEW I was working hard.... and they all agreed to help in some way, shape or form... and most of them didn't! Stick to your word people!!!

A 2.6.... I hope this is not going to RUIN my chances at getting into the colleges I wanted!!!!!!

So yea...I did manage some decent grades though, besides the 2 bad ones *cough*one'D'one'C'*cough*
English 4 - "B" Acting theatre 3 - "A"...Cheerleading "A".... Knee Surgery because of cheer... that deserves an "A"... plus I am STILL not totally healed up and I'm STILL doing physical therapy 2 and 3 times a week.... I just want to be better so I can get on with things... things like dancing and hiking!

Aye... hopefully I can REALLY deliver in my summer classes to bring my GPA back up...



That's all for now... it's late and I really should be in bed... though I still need to wrap my fathers fathers day present....


Goodnite! And Good day... lol


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