Auditions for my college show were today... you are allowed to come any time between 4pm-7pm and I arrived at about 5:50pm. Unfortunetly auditions were being ran different this time so I had ground to make up. There were 2 parts-- singing and dancing and since everyone sang and then danced I had to jump into the dance audition and then sing. The dance audition went well considering I had all of about 10 minutes to learn the whole thing (while everyone else had been there about 30mins)and then perform it. Anyway, it wasn't so bad.

After dancing I had to sing-- in front of everyone who was there auditioning. I wasn't as nervous as I thought, boy did I have myself fooled! I began singing and immediatly skipped to the end of the song so I stopped and started over. (Apparently nobody ralized the lyrics were wrong because the director said 'it was a great start')... anyway, I sang and I always end up trying to sing over the piano so I use my chest voice for notes I can't hit and well... it always ends badly-- I cracked a note, but recovered... but I felt like I was off the whole song... and then toward the end I lost it, lost the words, lost my place and just as I thought I was done I recovered the last line, probably off key. I got a comment from the director praising me for 'keeping it together' and 'finding my way back into the song'. That's good, I guess? I spoke with the accompianist post auditions and asked him about it-- he said I kept with the right notes and beside loosing my place in the end there was no problem... okay... I suppose I wanted to hear a little negative because I felt I did bad, maybe I didn't do as bad as I though... I wish I knew the truth.

Anyway, school is going well and I am enjoying my classes thus far-- though professors are always nice on the first day. We'll see tomarrow.

Be well,
***Blackout***