So...when you hear strike my guess is that you think NO WORK! because of bad pay or lousy hours or any number of other reasons...

Yet, when I hear strike I think, WORK WORK WORK and LOTS of it! Strike, in the theatre world is to "undo" the sets, knock it down and put it away. Luckly our sets were not too big of a deal and some of the *gasp* ACTORS helped! :-O lol.... The actors are in charge of cleaning up the greenroom...and that they did...but a few helped the techies strike, which was nice because then we were ALL able to leave for the after party a little sooner... Then again... Mike, Elicia and I were STILL the last ones out of the theatre...But we still got there before some of the actors.

The show itself went really well, suprisingly...hahaha. We had the biggest house of our entire run, 115 people showed! WOW.... and the night before we had 94 people. So, we did pretty well. I really hope that Radio TBS does that well....

At the after party we had a nice time....only stayed till about....12:30am-1am -ish...

At the theatre, like in the work and greenroom, each cast either makes something to sign and hang up or they just sign a poster... for Laughing Wild we jusrt signed a poster... for Crucible one of the actors nailed a cross together, and we all signed it and that will go up somewhere at the theatre.

The after party was at Chuck and Leeni's house, they are two of the actors in the play, nice people... BEAUTIFUL house...wow... if it were my house, I would not let anyone come in,...lol.... well....at least take their shoes off!

Despite all the stress with the director it was a bittersweet end. I got to meet a lot of people that I had never met before. A lot of Tulare people...probably 1/3 of the cast! They were a good group...most of them at least...lol.

Sunday afternoon, 2pm, we had Radio TBS rehearsal... and I think I freak out more everytime we have a rehearsal. I am okay at rehearsal, but when I am done with my scene it's like everything rushes into reality and I FREAK OUT. Like, I can't do this-- I can't do this, WHY did I say I would do this!?!?!?!? Why did I agree, I don't want to do this I am FREAKING OUT! I can't go ONSTAGE until the lights are off or the curtain is closed!!! Goodness I my hands are shaking just writing about it...

I annoy myself.... I really do...I complain WAY too much, I can only imagine what Elicia thinks... Maybe I will just shut up and not say ANYTHING. Granted I have been better... Not saying as much... I spoke with her about it and she told me what she thought...which was not what I wanted to hear, but it was honest and I respected and understood her point of view... she told me what she was going off of and that is the motto of the movie Risky Business, "What the fu*k." attitude.... Yea, I am doing this...but I don't want to... I figured a little better advice than that.

Anyway, I can't back out now....

The worst part is, is that I can't get the blocking down until we get into the theatre and I am onstage. And yesterday we did a lot of blocking on one of the actors' patios... WOW now that threw me off BIG TIME.

Since I am co-stage manager one of my jobs is to write down all the blocking for the actors... and myself as an actor.

It really buggs me though...because I am not seen as the SM...Elicia is...but I signed on just the same... Hell, I did not even sign on to be a stupid actor, I signed on the STAGE MANAGE!!!! I am no actor... I can't go onstage... I am going to need an entire bottle of valium... and IF that works I might be okay to go on.

But for now, I being freaking out.... I will not be suprised if I have a full blown panic attack before I actually go on....

Well, anyway, not that I have probably bored you to death I have to go home and do homework... FUN FUN FUN!

More later....

Oh! And kittens are doing well...

****blackout****

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